Can I Kill That Damn Promoter ?

for the past 5 days,aku gaduh dengan firdaus. hardly, i cant take it anymore. because aku sayang gila. and i'm afraid of losing him sangat . walaupun, dah berjuta orang cakap dekat aku " he's a dush ! asshole ! leave him ! " tapi aku tau, aku tak boleh tinggalkan dia. aku sayang kan dia. and perhaps.. i do actually 'cintakan' dia. whoaa ! :O

so, semalam aku brave myself. buang semua perkara macam tak pernah berlaku. macam kitorang tak pernah gaduh. foolishly, aku topup kan dia. idiot me . haritu time gaduh dia cakap dia demam. so aku yang bodoh ni pon dalam tengah kesempitan duit pergi belikan ubat untuk dia. sebab, aku pikir duit boleh dicari. sayang ? after last nite. i hate love. because they make me do foolish things.

melangkah masuk ke parkson. jumpa dia. dengan penat lelah aku berlari nak pergi ke dia, datang rupanya tak di welcome. he seems tak nak jumpa aku. tak nak layan aku. okay. i was like " i get it. you still mad ? whatever. take this. " i gave the pills and i went away.

nasib baik ewan ade. and stop me and start talking. guess what ? musuh aku kerja dekat depan brand pakwe aku. and i know what kind of girl she is. she hates me and my gang forever ! and i'm not going to lose to her.

aku tersentap. and aku termarah dia dekat situ. and as soon as i realize my action, aku terus bla. my last word " take care. " aku tak sanggup tengok dia curang depan aku.

without hint of regret, aku bla dari parkson.

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actually, i was on my way dating dengan faizal semalam . aku yang suruh dia berhentikan aku dekat ecm sebab aku nak jumpa firdaus.

lepas je kejadian tu, aku terus moody. bad mood. tak banyak cakap. Faizal notice it. and  i guess maybe he can be the better boyfriend than firdaus. Faizal tau and dia cuba buat aku happy. aku terharu sangat.

aku bla macam tu je from parkson. so, firdaus text me . but i didn't reply. even once. my heart broke enough. even now, thinking about it makes me cries. how could he do dis to me  when i actually really do love him a lot !

you know what ? i'm done being nice . i'm done crying for firdaus every night. i'm done.

p/s : nak pergi air terjun dengan faizal ! i hope he can make the best outta him. :)