Sorry Weren't Just A Word.

we tend to do mistake that sooner we regret doing it. but sometimes, and apology weren't going to make it settle. maybe it would be the end of a very faithful trust.

what you did to me, surely are unforgivable. it isn't about her i'm pissed about. its YOU. your lies. i can stand people mocked me. hated me. or anything. but i can't stand LIAR.

the feeling of betrayal it affected me. you are untrusted to your words.

tak kira lah berapa banyak kau mintak maaf. and may i asked you ? could it solve anything ? can you undone it ? dearly, the fact that you lies after another itu yang buat aku bengang gila dengan kau. aku tak kisah kalau kau nak lepak dengan dia ke, nak msg or whatever. that's your life. its not for me intrude.

but, why lying ? can you just be honest with me ?

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yap. ramai yang tanya, aku dah tak rapat dengan kau. as the matter a fact, it  is. i'll be lying if it didn't hurt me as much as it hurt you.

lately, aku mula rasai yang i don't have friend. friend that actually acted like one. its tears me apart. the feeling of  BEST FRIEND  acted such foolishness .

what happen yesterday, bukak mata aku luas luas. betapa hancurnya hati aku bila kau sanggup buat macam dekat aku. one by one. my friend hurt me. first it was hanif. and then alin. and badang. and who's next ? i begun to lose my friend. you guys hurt me a lot. i cried too much thinking how stupid i am to actually trust you. care about you. you hurt me too much . i never felt this kind of betrayal.

we been friend for all our life. but i guess ' partner' is much much more important. honestly, i never post anything concerning my friend. because i'm too busy thinking about what would you feel. i'm too busy cared about your feeling that i neglected my own. my temper has it rate. and i can't stand anymore.

thank god school almost over. i won't have to keep covering my feeling when i have no time seeing you all. i don't have time to actually bothered about all of you.

i'm thankful that HE shows the reality behind a ' happy' memories. its just full of lies and fake.

my heart is not for you to play. you can toy it around. i know its kinda exaggerated but sometimes exaggerated means TRUTH.

i'm done being nice. i'm tired being patients for all you have done. tired of covered up your mistake. tired of anything.

i'm done with you .

p/s : 2 days to come. and its all over. and i'm not acting like freaking childish. i'm just one step on making a right choice in being mature. :)